Boiling Point

I’m not sure how much more I can take. This is ridiculous and I don’t see the point – not even if it were a sign from the universe. What good is a message if its intended recipient is unable to understand it?

Time after time I continue to try and stay positive no matter how things go. Sure, I’ll have a knee-jerk reaction and spiral into a depression – but as always, in the back of my mind, I try to keep hope alive.

But… FFS… Within 72 hours, a shitstorm of immeasurable proportions rained down over my head… and although it eased up, we are now at a week and fecal matter continues to fall from the sky.

The temporary bridge in my mouth shattered and until I can get to my dentist, I have what I would compare to a chainsaw blade in the back of my mouth. When I eat or talk, I injure my tongue and jaw. In addition, I now bite my jaw and tongue when I sleep so it continually inflames the existing wound(s)

I almost cut the corner of my index finger off with a butcher knife while trying to prepare chicken.

A long, rusty nail gouged a 6″ gash over my kneecap. Nice trip to the ER.

Extensive water damage in the back room of our house. Due to weather conditions, it has yet to be repaired.

Stacked storage in attic fell through ceiling due to deteriorated wood beam. Repair also delayed due to weather.

Bought a newer vehicle to prepare for this winter and sold the little car I’ve had for the past 8 years. Within days of selling the old car, both the newer car and my girl’s car had issues -while the car I sold had never let us down in its entire life. Even its battery was 11 years old and stood strong. Part for newer car on backorder -no eta for part.

Due to weather conditions, all 3 of my regular meds were delayed. The most important of the three still having yet to arrive. (It was mailed from a facility 5 miles away to 200 miles away and then 200 miles back)

Two personal situations that involve my long term financial well-being have been exacerbated through weather delays

Misplaced my wallet again today. Second time in about 2 months.

I don’t understand why… But I am tired of trying to understand. Instead of anxiety about what may take place tomorrow, I’m more like “sure… whatever…”

I’m falling behind on mental health. I’m falling behind on daily chores.

When water boils to the top of its container, there’s only one place left to go… over the edge.