I’ve had many extremely hard decisions to make throughout my life. I have hurt good people… upended lives… cost at least one person her job…
Decisions such as those only had to be made once. After that, all that remained was fallout and damage control. The choice I keep coming back to is the one that I’ve had to repeatedly make every single day since the first day I was faced with it… And that’s been more than a decade ago.
The hardest decision I’ve ever had to make was the one that keeps me out of my daughter’s life on a daily basis.
I’ve heard the debates. I’m familiar with both sides of the argument. At the end of the day we have to do what we feel is right for everyone involved, not just a single person’s wishes.
To keep this short and neat, I will say that I believe a father is either all-in or all-out. Popping in and out of a child’s life only makes for confusion and problems. Kids need stability. Not only am I not that, I am nothing close to resembling it. I’m not a role model. I am not someone who could show someone else how to make the right choices -especially from half way across the country.
The choice isn’t easy. At the end of the day, I have to do what I believe will be in the best interest of the child. And that choice is to remain silent until the day she’s old enough to decide whether or not she would like to speak to me -if that day ever arrives.
Off The Rails 
Loads of 🤗🤗🤗.
LikeLiked by 1 person