1–2 minutes
Living to have a family. Dying to be alone.
Heart desires a partner. Mind requires isolation.
Starving for affection. Resistant to physical contact.
Always alone inside my head.
When I know I’m right. I learn I’m dead wrong.
Steps become stumbles.
Stumbles become falls.
The ground is never soft.
No reason for living. No reason for death.
Ambivalent in purgatory.
Off The Rails 