Knock Knock

I can feel the darkness beginning to tap on my shoulder again. Unlike many other times, I’m fairly confident where it’s coming from and what’s fueling it.

For almost a week I have experienced some strange pain in my stomach. I can’t eat without it being upset. I’m hungry, but I’m not… Yet when I force myself to eat, I go till I’ve consumed too much.

My dizziness has returned. It’s not as consistent as it was before the meds were prescribed, but it has come back.

Both arms are randomly going numb for no apparent reason.

I am sleepy all the time yet can only achieve 1-2 hours at a time at most.

There are a ton of other things that aren’t worth mentioning. I believe those are frustrations that, under normal circumstances, would not be of much concern to me; however, because of what already weighs me down, they add fuel to the fire.

There’s more to share but I’ve already fallen asleep multiple times just trying to get this typed out.

I’m exhausted mentally and physically. I’m trying to cope but it feels as though there’s nothing to help me gain traction as I slide down this hill.