I spend most every day trying my best to stay inside the light I’ve found within the darkness which has encompassed me most of my life.
Add to that, managing the added anxiety my happiness generates because not only is this an unfamiliar emotion, for the majority of my life it’s never stuck around for more than a month or so before being gloriously ripped from my hands.
I’d compare my life to walking in a minefield with a mostly accurate map of where the explosives were… but the field also contained randomly placed shiny things that would appeal to my ADHD brain. Sometimes the detonation is my fault. Other times, it was the path itself – and I never know which one it was until well after I’m putting myself back together.
Off The Rails 